I Perform Too Well
I have a confession when it comes to preaching on a pulpit. Whenever I have finished preaching, most of the time I feel awful. It is not because I don’t like preaching or having trouble doing it. Not at all, the problem is actually the other way around. I love preaching, I love being on a platform, being able to change people’s life and people’s paradigm in Christianity. But I think that is where my problem lies. This is where I will begin my confession.
I have too many “I"s in this matter. It is such a puny way of thinking, isn’t it? When we were asked by God to step up and took a pedestal to be His ambassador, let say such as; lead for Him, perform for Him, win for Him, sing for Him, speak for Him. We tend to put more "I"s in our thoughts than Him. We went into hyperdrive of "I"s. Was it wrong? Not really, of course we need some self assurance and self control on how are we going to do things. But it is simply not the main thing. Just like how our faith in Him.
The big point it is not us, we matter but we are not the point. Yes, there is so many things we can do, but it is not what He really asked of us. Including in our ministry. Doesn’t matter which department we are in, but the main thing is not only about how well we did what we did, but about what it meant for us and for other people and for God. What is the impact that we are able to give through His glory and what changes that we can spread in His name. If He has given us a task, He is there to see it through until it is finished. Never in my life I encounter God abandon people in their mission. Our ministry is bigger than just what we are capable to do for Him.
By the end of the day whatever we did in the name of Jesus never belongs to our own accreditation. We do it by Him, for Him and in His cause. What He compels our heart to do it is already a big enough reason to just do our best and the rest always belongs to His timing, His will and His glory. We don’t have to kill ourself in the process trying to please Him and trying to get it right with Him. It didn’t matter how much we score points by performing our best. It matters when we trust Him instead that we are doing this side by side with Him. So that through our willingness people may come and see that the Lord is alive and He is good.
Romans 3:37-28 (MSG)
"So where does that leave our proud Jewish insider claims and counterclaims? Canceled? Yes, canceled. What we’ve learned is this: God does not respond to what we do; we respond to what God does. We’ve finally figured it out. Our lives get in step with God and all others by letting him set the pace, not by proudly or anxiously trying to run the parade.”